new song i wrote. so far i think this is the best.

holding on to all my memories of you
cos i feel day by day you're just fading away
it's been twenty-seven days since my last proper conversation with you

i'm forgetting your eyes the way they stared into mine
your voice, your smile, that crazy hair that you had
it's just been too long and i can't stop thinking of you

so now i'm holding on tight to everything that i've got
i'm holding on tight to the memories of my first love
i'm holding on tight cos i don't want you to leave me
i'm holding on tight cos i never wanna let go of you

don't wanna lose my mind over this thing i called love
but i can't help myself, you're everything i dreamed of
and this is all your fault your the only thing stuck on my mind

so now i'm holding on tight to everything that i've got
i'm holding on tight to the memories of my first love
i'm holding on tight cos i don't want you to leave me
i'm holding on tight cos i never wanna let go of you

so go on without me, babe, go make life your own
it's so easy for me to say, but i never want it to be that way
so i'll just keep my heart on my sleeve and my hand on the phone

so now keep holding on tight to everything that you've got
keep holding on tight to the memories of our first love
keep holding on tight cos you said you'd never want to leave me
i'll keep holding on tight cos i never wanna let you go

11:21 am

quotable quotes:

"it's about having a dream and seeing it in the distance. It's about working for what you want. It's about the climb."

"Faith is having the strength to trust in something that you can't see with your eyes or prove scientifically. You believe because your heart tells you that's where you should go or who you should be. Your heart tells you what is right."

11:05 am

arrawrrawrr!
guess who's got H1N1?





xoxo

3:18 pm

according to this fb quiz i took, the next person i'm gonna kiss is called...mitch.
neways i didn't go to schooool today!

you know how it works, when you sleep and you forget everything that's bugging you? and when you wake up, whatever was bugging you doesn't seem that big a deal anymore? well, there's one thing that keeps bugging me and it just won't go away. cos it keeps coming back. and it just freaks the hell out of me.

now i've got this song on repeat, thinking about it. realising how much it applies to this situation, yet not wanting it to come true. cos inside, i hope the entire opposite is happening. you had me crawling for you, honey.

write a letter
make it all better

1:38 pm

this song just speaks to me:

All this time I was wasting,
Hoping you would come around
I've been giving out chances every time
And all you do is let me down
And it's taking me this long
Baby but I figured you out
And you're thinking we'll be fine again,
But not this time around

You don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don't wanna hurt anymore
And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did - before
You're not sorry, no no oh

Looking so innocent,
I might believe you if I didn't know
Could've loved you all my life
If you hadn't left me waiting in the cold
And you got your share of secrets
And I'm tired of being last to know
And now you're asking me to listen
Cause it's worked each time before

But you don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don't wanna hurt anymore
And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did - before
You're not sorry, no no, oh

You're not sorry no no oh

You had me crawling for you honey
And it never would've gone away, no
You used to shine so bright
But I watched all of it fade

So you don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
There's nothing left to beg for
And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did - before
You're not sorry, no no oh

You're not sorry, no no oh

hownowbrowncow?

1:20 pm

i've decided to blog again.

everyone say YAY!
so the first week back at school really sucked. most of it was my fault. i got 2 phones confiscated on friday. a greaaaat way to end my week. really. and i didn't only get my iphone confiscated, i got my other nokia confiscated too cos it was with me. fml man. so now i'm using a laopok phone cos my brother is using my fat phone. and this laopok phone is laopok cos i can't hear anything when making calls. -.-" yeah so i hope you trip while going up the stairs and DIE mmm and today is youthday. so no school. happyhappy.

overall this week has been super confusing. and not to mention unhealthy. for both the body and mind. WHY DO YOU ENJOY TORTURING ME LIKE THIS? hah. i bet you don't even know you're doing it. or maybe i'm doing the same thing to you?

oh and you wanna know another thing that sucks? my computer is starting to die...a slow and painful death. first by it's usb ports starting to DIE. uhhhh it's either that or my mouse is dying. and the wireless is dying too.

but you know what makes everything better? friends. and church. my weekend has been really great though and i thank God for that! saturday was spent with amelia. haha actually my whole weekend was with her. even for tuition today. saturday we studied and wrote a song called "after the storm". cos the sun doesn't shine as bright as it did before. and we went to my church and talked then we went to clarke quay for dinner and sat by the river just talking.

and she came to my church yesterday. and we went out for lunch with tiff, treye and keefe. it was really great company. i felt much better after lunch. and treye was so funny. "let's go whack him! i'll bring a hammer!" very nice friends hm? lol.

and in case you don't know, since i stopped blogging for so long, my grandma has moved in. at first i was like NO. i'll die. but now it's fun. she's so wise and funny and COOL. yes people, she has her own handphone AND laptop! hah. bet your grandma can't even use a phone or turn on a laptop. and she COOKS. :D :D home cooked cantonese food everyday is awesum.

10:01 am

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